Letting myself go... I found peace

I have make up my mind to let myself really let go of this relationship... I find peace when I do that.... althought it still hurts when I thought back but I know as time go by it will be forgotten and be remember as part of my growing up life. I felt that I can't simply dwell in the space and ignore that the time is moving ahead of me, people are around me, there is still many things I yet to see and explore.... And, I simply can't keep on making people around upset over me, especially my mum. Is just part and parcel of life, you have to learn to stand up when you fall down.

I decided to channel my love as I use to channel my past relationship to friendship. Since we cant be together as couple, at least caring you as a friend is just good enough for me. I can still know you are well, happy or sad through the messages in the hp. If time permit, we can still go out for a dinner or a show, etc, just like friends will always do. I do not know, I will feel weird or not but time will erase all the oddness and be as best friends we just to be before we are together.

It wasn't a mistake when we get together... and you shouldn't blame yourself either for destorying this relationship. I know very well why I have accepted you and you know it too. Probably that is what people always say: we are maybe meant for each other, just that we meet at the wrong time. If really fated, after a long run in our life and going around in circle, we will still be together in the end. So who will know what happen ahead of us, till you have walk till the end of our life... So I don't want to think about it so much, just be my old self - the worry-free, happy-go-lucky girl.

Dear friends... I really appericate the support that you all have given me all this while, although some of you all may not see this blog but deep inside my heart, I will always remind you all as my good friends. We have a long way to go as friends and maintaining a friendships is too like a relationship. I will keep this contact alive and never like last time loss you all again. So lets move on with our life together down this road of life and it will be lovely to see us old and merry gather under the parks with our grandsons and grand-daughters.